September 15, (THEWILL) – Controversial Nollywood actress, Tonto Dikeh, has stated that she once attempted suicide because of criticisms and negative perceptions about her personality.
The film star made this known during a recent Tedx where she talked about her past struggles with suicidal thoughts and how she finally managed to handle the situation.
According to her, at the time, she usually went indoors to cry when people say negative things about her because of the misconceptions about her personality.
The mother of one also stated that the situation left her heavily depressed that she drank a bottle of sniper to end her life.
“For years, I allowed the controversy to break me because I was not using it. Every time someone says a negative thing about me, I would go home and absolve it. I never knew what to do with it, I was stagnant,” she said.
“I let negativity get to me so much that I became what people thought I was. Then, if you call me a fool, I’ll act like one for you because I was in pain and needed to let people know they’re hurting me.
“One day, I was in my room and was so tired. God knows that I was so tired that I took a bottle of sniper and drank it all.
“I just wanted it to be over. It was too much for me that I couldn’t control it. In my mind, I know who I am but you’re telling me I’m someone else.
“My life was in a fix. I took the poison and kept waiting for what would happen….in that instance Jesus spoke to me ‘I gave you a second chance.”.
She stated that she has mastered the art of leveraging on controversies since the experience as she no longer allows negative remarks get to her.
“I am probably one of the most controversial persons on earth, proudly. The only reason why I can be proud of it is that I’m not fighting it, I’m using it for my advantage, I’m using it for my growth, for my satisfaction,” she added.