SAN FRANCISCO, September 21, (THEWILL) – Popular American musician, Lady Gaga, has spoken about her mental health struggles, revealing that she had wanted to commit suicide because of depression.
The 34 year-old singer disclosed this on CBS Sunday Morning show, saying that she got tired of pressure, fame and attention that comes with being popular.
She said: “I didn’t really understand why I should live other than to be there for my family. That was an actual real thought and feeling: ‘why should I stick around?
“It’s not always easy, if you have mental issues, to let other people see. I used to show. I used to self-harm. I used to say, ‘Look. I cut myself. See, I’m hurt.’ Cause I didn’t think anyone could see.
She said her piano, which has helped her make many songs, was responsible for her depression and pain.
“This is the piano I’ve had for so many years. I’ve written so many songs on it.
“And I think, ‘Oh my gosh, it’s so special, this piano, I love this piano. I don’t know how to explain. I went from looking at this piano to thinking, ‘You ruined my life!’ Like, ‘You made me Lady Gaga.’
“My biggest enemy is Lady Gaga! That’s what I was thinking. My biggest enemy is here. “What did you do? You can’t go to the grocery store now.
“If you go to dinner with your family, somebody comes to the table… It’s always about you. And your outfits, look at your outfits! Why you gotta be like that?”
Speaking on the themes of ‘Chromatica’, her 16-track album, she made an example of ‘Pop a 911’, a song which she said was inspired by the medication she takes when she was struggling with suicide.
“There’s not one song on that record that’s not true. Not one. I totally gave up on myself, I hated being famous. I hated being a star. I felt exhausted and used up,” she said.
“I don’t hate Lady Gaga anymore. I found a way to love myself again, even when I thought that was never gonna happen.
“Now I look at this piano and I go, ‘Oh, my god, my piano! My piano that I love so much; my piano that lets me speak; my piano that lets me make poetry; my piano that’s mine.”no that lets me make poetry; my piano that’s mine.”
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